

'I think I was drawn to try and be in the spotlight because I felt like if I could be famous, that would be a shortcut to feeling a connection with people,' Madison says in the 'Secrets of Playboy.' Holly Madison, 42, said her mom even thought she had Asperger's, a high-functioning form of autism, because she had so much trouble 'connecting with other people.' Madison was 21 when she moved into the Playboy mansion in 2000 and became Hefner's 'special one,' or main girlfriend. I feel like I was kind of really asexual, so maybe I just wasn't ready for that,' she reveals in the premier of 'Secrets of Playboy,' a 10-part docuseries that aired Monday on A&E. 'I never had casual sex with anybody before.

One of Playboy founder Hugh Hefner's most notorious girlfriends says she never had casual sex before meeting him and was 'kind of asexual' before the first night she slept with the magazine publisher.
